Archive for May, 2012

Nursing nightmare

May 24, 2012

Last night was the first night that I didn’t like my daughter. I love her to death and I will never not love her but I didn’t like her. I know it was only a mistake, an accident and she didn’t intentionally hurt me, but the pain!!! I was peacefully sitting on the couch nursing Nerys and we both nodded off. The effects of a long day at the office and the wonderful hormones released when you nurse. So my little angel must have lost her latch on my breast and her little mouth slipped to a closed position on my nipple. She then proceeded to clamped down on my nipple with her brand new EXTREMELY sharp little teeth. She has 4 of them and another 2 on the way. As a result of me dozing, I got a fright and jerked, ripping her off my breast, as her sharp teeth ripped through my nipple. I think it was more painful than child birth. The Taff had to take her off my hands. I was in so much pain, I couldn’t comfort her and give her love… remember, she had also been sleeping which was rudely interupted with a scream of pain . I know I should have pressed her face towards my breast and not ripped her off, but I wasn’t alert enough to realise what was happening and reacted with instinct, which it to get the offending item off your body… and quickly!

I am still in so much pain. I cleaned the nipple with soap and warm water last night and then put breastmilk on it. I nursed her through the night on the healthy breast and this morning nursed her on my sore side. I wanted to cry, but I know I must continue nursing her. Again I cleaned the nipple with soap and warm water and put breastmilk on the wound, which I will continue to do through the day. I really hope that by tonight I can nurse her with less pain.

Lesson learned – NEVER, NEVER rip a nursing baby with teeth off your nipple, it WILL cause harm! and you won’t like your angel very much, which is a horrible feeling!


9 Months

May 11, 2012

So my baby girl is 9 months old today.  She has breathing almost as long as I carried her.  She is the biggest blessing of my life.  Nothing I have ever done before compares to the miracle that is Nerys.


Happy 9 months my baby girl… Mummy loves you more than life it’s self.

How things change

May 10, 2012

Before I fell pregnant I never imagined that I would nurse a day in my life.  The thought repulsed me.  Now, 9 months later almost to the day, I can barely believe that I once thought that.  It is so far from where I am today.  Now I’m in the process of becoming a La Leche League leader… that’s how far my thought process has come in a short 9 months.  Breastfeeding changed my life and the way that I thought to such a degree I can barely believe it.

My baby is just about still a baby, when I look at her now she is more like a toddler, but she’s still my baby.  I know it’s only a matter of time before I start getting  “Are you STILL breastfeeding?”  Somehow, it’s not normal.  I read a fascinating essay yesterday – “Watch your Language” by Diane Wiessinger, MS, IBCLC.  She goes into the dangers of talking about breastfeeding as if it’ not normal and that saying things like “Breast is Best” is actually damaging.  We shouldn’t be singing the praises of breast milk, rather highlighting the dangers of formula feeding.  In our society we speak as though feeding formula were normal when in actual fact, it’s breast feeding that’s normal.  We need to start speaking from a place where breast feeding is normal and not the other way around.

I believe and know that I am doing the most normal and natural thing by breastfeeding my Nerys, it’s “you” that needs to change your thinking and attitude, not me.